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Day 22.
Today is January 29, 2069, Sunday.
15: 38. Norma again follows me around and constantly feeds me various sweets. During our conversation, she casually mentioned my weight, saying: "I'm exactly 10 times heavier than you. You weigh 43 kilos, right? I'm 53." But I never told her the exact weight. Although, don't be surprised, we're in a psychiatric ward.
16: 56. It's time to go to training, but Diana wrote to me, and I do not know if I should miss classes because of her. I'm afraid she'll disappear from the blog again, and we'll never talk again.
18: 46. Diana sent the following message: "Hi, Onisan. I'm sorry I didn't answer you earlier, it's just that there are differences in our family.
Dad left Mom. He told her that he had loved another woman all his life, and they had an illegitimate child who was taken into state care, and his beloved was sent to the yellow city. The day after this revelation, the parents went to the main building of the marriage system to file for divorce. To do this, they passed a compatibility test, the result of which was 98%, so their request was rejected.
My mother went to work as usual, and I went to school. And when I came back, I saw things scattered around the house, broken furniture. Then I heard a crash and my father's unintelligible cry. He ran out of the kitchen with a knife and started swinging it around.
I was very scared and ran into the hall, I wanted to hide on the balcony, but the door was blocked by an overturned table. My father began to push me against the wall, and he cried and cried and begged, no, he begged for forgiveness, and I screamed as loud as I could. Dad swung the knife at me, but I managed to put my hand under the blow and continued to scream until the alarm went off. After that, he ran away from home.
That's all I remember from that day, because the next time I opened my eyes, it was in the hospital. We don't know where Dad is now, he cut a chip out of his hand. They are looking for him, but to no avail. And my mother and I moved to another house, but even here I can't sleep alone.
Onisan, when you are released from the hospital, be sure to move in with us. I've already talked to my mother, and she's allowed it. I'll make you buns every day, I promise.
I called Diane and we talked it over. She explained to me that "onisan" means brother, so now I will call her little sister.
22: 31. Norma made a gift and drew my portrait. She told me that she drew, but I could not imagine how beautiful it was.
Sophie asked me why I didn't go to practice, and I explained everything to her. To which she offered to drink tea and have a heart-to-heart talk.
They actually bought a new apartment for three, so I can live with them by signing a contract. I think this is an ideal option, for the first time.
Day 23.
Today is January 30, 2069, Monday.
11: 36. Another scan of the body. Result: weight-46 kg, height – 173 cm. I told the doctor about the dream and the arrhythmia, and received only smiles from the nurses. I don't know what's funny or funny about it. The doctor says that my condition is almost stable.
In the past, I would have been happy about it, but now I don't want to leave the hospital. Every day more and more topics come to mind for a conversation with Norma, and they say that they will be discharged in a week. Should I leave the window open tonight and sleep without a blanket? Nonsense, but still.
14: 21. Norma read me quotes from an old collection, and I remembered this one: "After all, you have to depend on others," and I think I now understood what kind of dependence was discussed.
I have always considered such feelings as something poetic and far from me, I thought that these love stories from books and films are just fiction, incompatible with reality. But Norma changed everything, came down on my head with her interrogations, demanded attention, made pleasant surprises, and stole my quiet days.
Does it really take so little to be happy? This makes it even scarier. If happiness is so easy to find, then losing it is even easier? I don't want to check.
I lost my mother and father, I lost my interest in life, I wanted to die. I won't let Norma go. I will do everything for her to be with me, to think and care only for me, to be close to me. Now I won't give up the person I love so easily. I'll make her dependent on me. Norma will be mine.
16:32. She didn't leave the room again, or we just didn't run into each other. I didn't think it was possible to miss a person who is 50 steps away from you. Tomorrow there will be a small tournament between our and the pediatric departments, so today the training will be more difficult.
Day 24.
Today is January 31, 2069, Tuesday.
18: 31. In the morning there was a tournament, where there were 6 teams (3 from each department). Norma decided to try her hand at volleyball. I watched her play. No, not right. I watched her, watched her movements, caught every look, every smile. I was hypnotized. I vaguely remember my match, I did everything automatically, and my thoughts were next to her.
After the competition, Norma was more energetic and enthusiastic, unlike me, a lazy introvert who dreams of peace and quiet. But I like it when she persuades me to go for a walk or to the dining room, look at the fish, listen to music, play checkers.
At 18:00, Norma went to therapy with a psychologist, and I can finally rest in peace. Only first you need to talk to Diana, now she needs all the support and care.
Day 25.
Today is Wednesday, February 1, 2069.
12: 44. It's hard to believe that a month of my stay in the hospital has already passed. The last few weeks have passed quickly.
I haven't seen Norma since last night. She didn't go out for dinner and breakfast. I'm worried about this, so I'll talk to Lavender during lunch and ask about Norma's health. I don't even have a clue as to why she's suddenly withdrawn.
If you remember, she never talked about her experiences and the cause of depression, or it's just that I was not interested. We really need to talk.
19: 32. At a quiet hour, Sophie came up and said that I needed to pack my things. She was wearing casual clothes and cleaning my bedclothes, while explaining that we had to go to the property management system in time to register me as the tenant of a room in their apartment. Because of this rush, I didn't even have time to say goodbye to anyone and talk to Norma. I just realized that I don't even have her phone number or blog address. You should definitely visit her as soon as possible. For now, I should put my things away and set up my room, if Diana will let me.
She was incredibly happy to see me and immediately ran to bake a birthday cake. In the process, Diana constantly asked me about my taste preferences and slightly changed the recipe of the cake depending on my answers, very nice of her.
It is hard to believe that this energetic girl with a smile that never leaves her face, survived the horror that she wrote to me about. But now everything will be fine, I'll take care of my little sister.
